When the cold season came around, it pulled me inward. This is the time of year when I feel the strongest urge to hibernate. I found myself spending most days under my weighted blanket, turning inward, reflecting on myself. There was a lot of thinking, a lot of meditating.

This is also the season when words feel heavy — so heavy that speaking feels exhausting. Socializing feels like too much. So instead, I read. Reading became my comfort, my safe place.

During this time, I kept feeling a quiet but persistent pull back to my mediumship. Back to my practice. Back to reading. But I didn’t know where to begin or how to start. I didn’t know what I was supposed to do with that pull — until one night I had a dream, followed by an intense download the very next morning during meditation.

The instructions were clear. Who to read. What to do. How to proceed.

The download paralyzed my body. It came in waves, shocking my soul. I still haven’t unraveled everything that came through, and I don’t think I’m meant to yet. But I do know this: I was being pushed to refocus my energy back toward mediumship. So that same day, I ordered books, registered for classes, and intentionally placed myself back into that energy.

The meditation that followed wasn’t as intense. It was softer. More subtle. But it brought clarity. I realized I needed to put myself out there and stop being afraid.

I am a true introvert at heart. My biggest fear has always been working in groups. If I could walk around wrapped in a blanket at all times, I would. If I could be a masked medium, I’d be the first — trust me.

I also received insight about my gifts and how I’m meant to use them. And for the first time, instead of pulling back, I decided to take a chance.

Why not?